Things are going so slow...
I can't believe I'm still sitting here, and I have no idea when my surgery will be. I understand Doctors are busy people, but I tell you what. I'm tired of sitting in doctor's offices for over an hour past my scheduled time - feeling rushed once I'm in there, and leaving with no real answers. Such as why does sample 1706 get a grading of 3 (poorly differentiated), while my tumors with the same characteristic is considered moderately differentiated? Don't get me wrong, I'm hoping it is grade 2 vs grade 3 - I just want to make sure it isn't grade 3, and they treat me for grade 2. I've asked two doctors so far, no answer.
There has to be a better way.
Today I met with my oncologist - but I really need to meet with a surgeon, and a plastic surgeon - but because of insurance changes I can't see them for at least anothe r week. The oncologist really won't be doing anything with me until after surgery, but still wants to see me once I get an MRI done.
Emotionally, this is exhausting. I'm prepping myself for chemo and rads - but now, I'm thinking it won't be until feb/march that I'll be going through that. I want to get this over!!!
I can't believe I'm still sitting here, and I have no idea when my surgery will be. I understand Doctors are busy people, but I tell you what. I'm tired of sitting in doctor's offices for over an hour past my scheduled time - feeling rushed once I'm in there, and leaving with no real answers. Such as why does sample 1706 get a grading of 3 (poorly differentiated), while my tumors with the same characteristic is considered moderately differentiated? Don't get me wrong, I'm hoping it is grade 2 vs grade 3 - I just want to make sure it isn't grade 3, and they treat me for grade 2. I've asked two doctors so far, no answer.
There has to be a better way.
Today I met with my oncologist - but I really need to meet with a surgeon, and a plastic surgeon - but because of insurance changes I can't see them for at least anothe r week. The oncologist really won't be doing anything with me until after surgery, but still wants to see me once I get an MRI done.
Emotionally, this is exhausting. I'm prepping myself for chemo and rads - but now, I'm thinking it won't be until feb/march that I'll be going through that. I want to get this over!!!
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My mum had breast cancer when i was 17 (20yrs ago). I was the first person she told, even before my dad. Thankfully after a long course of treatment she was clear of it, but it was a harrowing time for all of us.
I wish you well on your journey.
The waiting is the hardest part. Well, maybe not THE hardest part, but it is definitely the most painstaking part. Once things get moving for you, it will move quickly and while it doesn't seem like it now, you will look back in awe at how it flew by. Hang in there. Just enjoy every moment you have right now. As difficult as it seems and as much as you would rather be actively doing some to fight the cancer, know that soon enough you will be and everything will change for a time (and in some ways permaenently). This moment right now is for you. Grab it and enjoy it.
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